worried

mmmm yesterday and today i have become pretty worried about the relationship between me and my boyfriend... you know i am a strong minded person. i know what i want at least i thought i do/did.... for instance the first time i saw this guy (Zhi Bai) i knew i liked him it was like love at first sight.. even without speaking just seeing him i was attracted and from that day i was determined absolutely to some how possibly become his friend i didn't see any possibility of anything more.... so anyway eventually after alot of waiting we finally got introduced together and instantly liked him straight away..... and after knowing each other for over a month we started going out well had our first date~!! well at the beginning i was nervous... and we've had lots of things to think about our cultures are just so different.... things you couldn't imagine... like for example even the dating culture... i dunno if the way we are doing things is traditional chinese dating.... since this is the first time i ever dated a chinese guy.. and nobody else has any experience as to what to expect whats normal so i am just taking things as they come..... anyway regardless are relationship is a striking difference to the average irish relationship...



none the less i am enjoying the relationship he is such a sweetheart.so kind and we get on really well sharing things with each other texting alot... part of my worries is when is the bubble going to burst? all good things must come to an end... i know not to think about this but it does cross my mind.... also i am concerned that perhaps its not him that i like.... i mean i have for along time maybe since 2006 i have always admired asia ... japan, korea, china..... what if its just that he is from there that i like.... but i know it can't be ... i like his personality and his country is part of who he is... so its natural he would talk about it.. and i supose someone who has no interesty whatso ever wouldn't date a chinese guy......




whatever will be will be...

que sera, sera...........

oOo! its my birthday today i forgot to mention ~ my boyfriend bought me the lovelyiest pair of shoes ~~~~!! gorgeous ~~~!! i was so delighted (o'.'o)