over rated

After dating my boyfriend for like 4 months i realised that dating an asian boy is over rated lol.. and that basically i have to admit i had no idea what to expect .. but i have to say i did have a delusion that it was going to be easy and a dreamy experience and things would just float along i dunno i was a total fool lol the problems me and him have experienced have been have astronomical.. if thats the right spelling lol.. basically infinate things to think about nothing is easy at all... there is so many compromises to make i don't mean to discourage people about this kind of dating..... but just be prepared for a bumpy ride..... i'm getting ready for the crash lol.......

but i mean all that said it hasn't all been doom and gloom and problem after problem, fight after fight there has been some good times along the way ^^ this is just something people don't warn you about basically because they don't know... anyway i still have some hope that this could work out with a bit of luck ^^

heres some of our happier moments ^^

Theif

I had the most horrible day today, it royally sucked absolutely everything that could go wrong went wrong actually this whole week hasn't exactly been wonderful at all... can a person be algeric to another person?? T.T i know this sounds absolute madness... but unfortunately it did cross my mind.... this week on i think tuesday... i went to starbucks with my boyfriend had a lovely time.... i kissed him goodbye... on the cheek..... nothin strange with that.. he kissed me goodbye on friday when he was going to work..... things have changed so much since then T.T but anyway the next day he had spots on his face... =/ then he went swiming ... his face was like red... then yesterday... it was so much worse.. i have to say i didn't feel confortable... i do have this tendency to laugh at the most inappropriate moments... its just nerves i think my emotions are so wierd i cry when i am angry or frustrated =/ whats wrong with me??? anyway yesterday i got a laughing fit when this happened to him i just couldn't control it =/

Also i made another mistake.... he text me yesterday "oh my fucking face" then i went to the library and he seriously looked terrible =/ he said to me is it worse than yesterday.... ? i said yes... ooops!!!!!! he thought it was better... then i brought him to a chemist got algery pills and worked on trying to convince him it was better =/ ah fuck ! then today i met him and he asked how is it? i said oh it is much better... but to be honest... ummm no improvement.....

That's not even the beginning of the problems and series of unfortunate events.... well first off i didn't sleep a wink last night @.@ i think, no in fact i know i am catching a cold.... i woke up so grumpy and pissed off ... everything bothered me ! one thing was i wanted to wear the jeans i got for my birthday that i had seen in the hot press that was grand i looked in there and i couldn't see... then my mom said oh i put them in your cuboard.... i went to my room to look in the cuboard.... guess what ? my sister the night before had taken everything out of the cuboard so it was like searching for a needle in a haysack Fuck! then i found out it was a different pair of jeans she had put in.... typical.. i eventually found them in the hot press

Then next thing that happened this was almost the icing on the cake! me and my boyfriend went to the bagel factory for lunch we both placed our order... i opened my purse... guess what no money HOLY SHIT!! i was like fuck fuckity fuck ... WTF happened..... i kinda panicked... then my boyfriend noticed he's like what happened to your money...?? i have never been so embarassed in my life *^_^* then eventually i realised that my sister had taken it.... yesterday my sister asked where is my make up n i told her its in my coat pocket .... and my purse was in it....... so no surprise there... i really can't believe that girl i was so furious when i got home i screamed at her! another crappy worrying thing is normally when my boyfriend gets the train with me he always texts me when he gets to work.... and today he didn't =( ..... i am worried he is pissed off with me so i text him when i got home apologised again wished him well at work also yesterday a similar thing happened... only i text him ... be4 he started work n he replyed... hes starting to distance himself thats what it feels like anyway.... =( am i getting paranoid???? it feels like the beginning of the end


We wer even planing to go to the cinema tomorrow and he canceled thaty because he had to study... its not good signs... and to top the whole day off.. i feel sick with pain in my nose and i have a pain in my stomach ! =( if he doesn't text me tonight i am doomed =( he hasn't said i love you lately either
i hope things improve <3

worried

mmmm yesterday and today i have become pretty worried about the relationship between me and my boyfriend... you know i am a strong minded person. i know what i want at least i thought i do/did.... for instance the first time i saw this guy (Zhi Bai) i knew i liked him it was like love at first sight.. even without speaking just seeing him i was attracted and from that day i was determined absolutely to some how possibly become his friend i didn't see any possibility of anything more.... so anyway eventually after alot of waiting we finally got introduced together and instantly liked him straight away..... and after knowing each other for over a month we started going out well had our first date~!! well at the beginning i was nervous... and we've had lots of things to think about our cultures are just so different.... things you couldn't imagine... like for example even the dating culture... i dunno if the way we are doing things is traditional chinese dating.... since this is the first time i ever dated a chinese guy.. and nobody else has any experience as to what to expect whats normal so i am just taking things as they come..... anyway regardless are relationship is a striking difference to the average irish relationship...



none the less i am enjoying the relationship he is such a sweetheart.so kind and we get on really well sharing things with each other texting alot... part of my worries is when is the bubble going to burst? all good things must come to an end... i know not to think about this but it does cross my mind.... also i am concerned that perhaps its not him that i like.... i mean i have for along time maybe since 2006 i have always admired asia ... japan, korea, china..... what if its just that he is from there that i like.... but i know it can't be ... i like his personality and his country is part of who he is... so its natural he would talk about it.. and i supose someone who has no interesty whatso ever wouldn't date a chinese guy......




whatever will be will be...

que sera, sera...........

oOo! its my birthday today i forgot to mention ~ my boyfriend bought me the lovelyiest pair of shoes ~~~~!! gorgeous ~~~!! i was so delighted (o'.'o)

Americas Next top Model

hey! what do u think of this show Americas Next top model? i only started watching it while i was staying with my auntie while my parents wer ironically away in Hong Kong ~and i incidently loved it.. its interesting in away. it kinda made me think about muslim girls... who always claim to have just as much rights as any other girl..... and they always feel more respected cos they not wearing mini skirts or whatever.. but they are definitely limited here.. theres no such thing as a muslim model..... or is there? i checked it out :D found one Michelle Leslie well a fake muslim lol... shes half philipino half austrailian... got arrested in indonesia for drug poession... then "converted" perhaps to get treated with more respect..... less rudesness.. which shows that muslims treat non muslims with with less respect ....i am sick of this ... whats good for the goose is not good for the gander.. they demand respect here... in the west but we will never get the respect back when we go to there country....

Michelle Leslie

Before

After

further reading http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Michelle_Leslie and http://www.mentalmayhem.net/newswire/2005/12/model_muslims_c.html

Happy St patricks Day!!!

Dia duit ^^ conas ata tu??? hehe this is irish for hello how are you ~ haha well i am irish lol =D so i wanted to share the irishyness =P

★HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY!!! ★

hope the luck of the irish was with you ~ well today i went down the seafront and watched the parade with my parents and little brother... well i have to say my towns parade was not exactly much to right a home about basically in it there was

* old cars, * football teams, * scouts, boats, marching bands, big huge trucks, hip hop dancers, flame throwers, chinese dancers, it went on for about 1 hour n a half... but it was totally freezing...... n horrible.. i wanted to get in from the cold go to a pub... but guess what my dad chose the only pub that didn't open til 4:30.. so we had to wait around it was so sad... so we went in i wanted pork scratchings... but no can do.... just peanuts anyway then my cousin insisted we go on the rides.. i knew i'd probably end up going on them... we went on one called the Euro dancer and basically it went up in the air to the side then a sudden down drop in a rotating motion.. it was auful my stomach felt terrible... i just wanted to get off.... i wish my chinese boy was not so lazy and had of come it would of been so nice.... even though i don't like them i would of enjoyed them being with him ^^ or even just being with him lol but u can't always have what you want....

my project is almost done....

Hey!! how is it going? well it is Sunday night now just thinking back on the last week =] well i think it went pretty well after Monday and Tuesday which wer just absolutely horrible =[

some assholes in my project being lazy asses ~ doing absolutely fuck all in the project not picking up there fone letting me do all the work then i get blamed for it !!! thats ridiculous if i don't do the work whos going to do... i learnt something about who my real friends are after this.... one good thing =D but there was one slightly bad thing i have only half sorted out.... =/ i was suposed to be with this group for my next project aswell..... but i went to my lecturer and asked to change.... i explained all the problems she completely understood.. so now i am doing the next project on my own.... so only myself to argue with =] but my problem is how am i going to tell my orignal group that i have left???? they have already assigned me a section to do... regardless of how i handle this its going to end on bad terms =| i can't please everyone !!

Hey guess what i am madly in love ~~~~~~~~~~♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ w ith my baby ^^ cute boy hehe ^^ let me introduce you :D:D he is a chinese boy Zhi Bai ^^ 21 years old...~~~~ really kind gentle funny ^^ allways joking dreamy~~~ i just think perfect ♥♥♥♥♥ hehe we are going to the cinema next saturday so happy :D:D:D:D can't wait really can't :D ♥ i just thought i would put this in hehe ^^ anyway does anyone remember Israelis Eurovision song contest entry last year? ♥Teapacks - Push the button♥ now i know its old now but i think it would be very apropriate this year considering what happened last week with the palestinian shooting up a jewish school i think it was disgusting the whole thing those poor kids it is really so sad.... people getting so reckless and selfish over a piece of land in my mind its just unjustable inexcusable... getting killed just because of their religion... anyway the palestinians dug them self a nice hole if israelis retailiate which i have no doubt they will i can't say the palestinians didn't deserve it... i fought with a good egyptian friend about this today and the attitudes they gave me was just utterly disgusting..... i couldn't believe it... anyway i hope israelis prove to have a even more interestin g entry this year :D
♥ ♥ ♥ thinking of u my sweet ^^♥ i miss you ♥