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3rd year

2010 has sucked since the end of august... not just because of college... actually if i didn't have college i'd probably go mental. i have to have something to focus on or i just start thinking about the inevitable. The year ahead does not look promising... no job, no boyfriend, no money. nothing to show for my 20 years on this planet @.@ i think im having a mid life crisis....

On a brighter note some good has come out of all the negativity at the end of august. i have officially started learning chinese. Now your all thinking definitely she has lost her god damn mind and maybe i have. but out of all the possible things i could do to keep my future stable this was the number one option to consider. I know people allways have these ideas to start learning japanese or korean or some asian language and then after awhile just get fed up and quit. but not me. (don't quote me) i don't intend to quit at the moment anyway....) but i plan to stick it out to the end.

As soon as all the negativity surrounded me at the end of August.. the very next day i started actiively learning chinese and i can't say i see huge improvements this is my maybe fourth week since i started? maybe 5th.. but i do see some little things sometimes. like in college my boyfriend was talking in chinese and i could recognise when he said "ming tian jian" = see you tommorrow. so i was pretty happy that was my first milestone.

Today i reached another milestone i feel i learnt how to structure some sentences. about what people are doing
zhe ge nan ren zai chi fen = the man is eating
zhe xie nu ren zai zou fen = the girls are cooking and so on.....

well i downloaded a virtual cd rom rosetta stone it was pretty complex to set up but pretty awesome ^^

well this is all i have time for today.

China

I just realized i never posted any photos of china on this blog and i feel quite in love today lol. I had a nice day at home with my boyfriend relaxing eating lunch, we watched Step up 2 the streets. it was nice. We have been going through a rough patch lately. Just fighting over everything. I suppose it was mostly stress over money. I don't have a job and it puts pressure on him. Its not fair him having to pay for most things. But it still doesn't stop me from missing some of the little things. like when we first started going out when we went to the cinema, We would allways buy a large coke to share and it was really nice sharing. but now we have stoped doing that we have started buying a bottle each in the spar beside the cinema =[ i know it saves money. But it made me feel like he didn't care. The recession is affecting absolutely everything my family life my relationship. I really want to get away from this country. Another issue we've been having is because of his family hes totally focused on his studies @.@ and i felt sidesteped =[ but i think things are finally picking up.... I guess we have to start accepting that we are getting older and times are changing we have to work towards our future more. Why do we have to become so grown up. now i know why some women like younger men it makes them feel younger and lessens stress and takes there mind off worrys about the future.

I watched a really random movie I love you, man. it was suposed to be really funny but it was actually really sad. It was incredibly arkward to watch with my boyfriend very embarassing i nearly had to explain somethings that are better left unsaid.... lol. But it was also sad because it had some home truths about how hard it is to find true friends.

what a strange train trip

I knew Friday was going to be a weird day my mom hassled me all morning about cleaning and blah blah blah and i was just so fed up. then my boyfriend said i could go in and meet him at the college after he finished in the gym. he didn't seem to care whether i came or didn't so because of that i wasn't that bothered what time i got in there at. I had my lunch n all n them my mom left to meet my aunt i was up in my room tidying and then i suddenly started organizing all the stuff i was given in china. I put on some of the jade jewelery its made of jade and red string basically. I was going to wear the bracelet and the necklace but i think it was a bit over the top of patriotism lol so i settled for just the 2 bracelets even still i felt a bit weird but didn't care. then i changed my mobile phone charm to something similar to the bracelet. red string and jade stones. i had Doraemon since china and was just bored of it frankly. It made my phone a lot lighter changing it...

so then i left the house walked down to the station. got in the carriage sat down there was a newspaper on the ground and it was stuck together with chewing gum so i wriped off the front cover obviously without touching the front cover and red the thing and left the two parts opposite me when i was done. Then this black/Romanian/Pakistani I'm not sure what ethnicity he was or what language he was speaking it wasn't Indian I'm certain. he was quite dark skinned... anyway he picked up the stuff red the newspaper part that i had... then he tried to pull open the part that was stuck with chewing gum ewwwwww and then once he did that he fooled it up and then he put it in his mouth..... very weird and very gross. i didn't say a word then after that he put his legs up on the seat beside me and lied down. Then i was bored i started fiddling with the bracelets... he must of noticed and then suddenly he put his hand in his pocket took out a colorful bead bracelet and handed it to me... I know the whole don't take anything from a stranger thing,,,, but i went against my instinct and said "is this for me?" he said "yes" i took it said thank you... when he gave me the bracelet i felt like i should give him money to be honest it was so weird. then we sat in silence tor the rest of the train ride then i arrived at my station he got up before me and said bye... i said thank you bye bye.... then i as i was walking out of the train i noticed he was carrying a fold up chair. and a huge bag i guess he must be a busker....

one of the oddest train trips ever i have only ever talked to a complete stranger maybe 3 times before in the last 2 years.... @.@ I guess he was just doing his good deed for the day.

examerama

Hello! ^^
How are you all? well since the last blog entry, things are actually starting to look up. well i had all my summer end of semester exams last week and one this week and their all over now! what a relief i had never been so exhausted in my whole life 5 exams 5 days in a row. with no breaks it was insanely intense. i had to get up at 6:45 each day. i am actually an early riser but i just hate anytime before 7 lol @.@

so now I'm on summer holidays until September so i have basically 4 months off quite a long holiday. I'm planing to do a teach English as a foreign language course TEFL that will take place in June and last for a month. Then in July i am going to Tenerife with my family for 10 days also me and my boyfriend are planing a trip down to Irish countryside, Galway. so it should be nice.

Also our fees problem is over now thank god. my boyfriend got awarded a 1000 euro grant from the college. Then he went to the fees office and he told him that they were decreasing the international fee from 9000 to 8000 euro then my boyfriend talked to the head of the fees office and told him of his financial situation and he gave him a further 10% discount so the that brought the fees to 7000 and now my boyfriend only has to pay 6000 of his own money he really is lucky! thank god! so he has been really positive since ^^ which is great i hate when he talks deep stuff about the future. although he still is... yesterday he was saying he won't marry me unless i do all the housework @.@ what the hell. he really is the laziest guy i have ever met and also he changed his phone background =[ its not us anymore its a picture of a car. =[ i hate him so selfish and annoying i hope all our love doesn't evaporate or something @.@



also i recently finished my first Taiwanese drama Fated to love u it was hilarious and so romantic! possibly the best drama I've ever watched @.@ now i am finishing off a Korean drama The 1st stop coffee prince its good

my boyfriends moving back to china

Yea i heard last night that my boyfriend is moving back to china by the end of october.... all thanks to this bloody recession, thanks all u greedy people, great job. i hope you lose all your money. so as u can imagine i am not very happy right now hopefully we can come up with something. just keep up a brave face is all we can do. oh while im posting ironically i downloaded a japanese wedding magazine i think i found my dream dress lol the one on top i think it is absolutely goregeous ^^ or else this one i think it is perhaps the same one not sure so what do u think? heres another hehe pink i love it lol finally the ideal bouquet hehe !! the bottom one on the left i might aswell show my favorite japanese syle then i would choose the top left bouquet oh and look what else i found fancy ass nails
well this has cheered me up a little lol its nice to dream lol

quiz

Answer the following 12 questions about yourself:
1. What is your first name? Sarah

2. What is your favorite food? Lasagne

3. What high school did you attend? Loreto Bray

4. What is your favorite color? Pink

5. Who is your celebrity crush? Eminem

6. Favorite drink? Jones

7. Dream vacation? Korea

8. Favorite dessert? Banoffee

9. What do you want to be when you grow up? Teacher

10. What do you love most in life? Love

11. One word to describe you? Caring

12. Your username? Sticky Carnival


Type your answer to each of the above questions into Flickr's search. Using only the im
ages that appear on the first page, choose your favourite and copy and paste
( i cheated a tad lol but who cares lol it was fun to do)

Happy Christmas!!!

Happy Christmas and Happy New year!!

i made a big blunder this christmas well not exactly on christmas day but on the run up to christmas not in the usual typical things like leaving my shoping and stuff to the last minute but rather offering to help a friend? i know that sounds quite absurd but i wish i never offered now, not because it was so difficult but rather the consequences....

The day before Christmas eve i was down the town doing a few errands and what not. My friend rang me and asked me to give me a hand shoping so i did and then we went back to his house and had lunch then he asked me to help him wrap the presents.... BAD IDEA! well it wouldn't of been if we had of done it in the kitchen @.@ well unfortunately we didn't we started wrapping in the dinning room and there was a table cloth on the table and a runner on top... and then we started wraping and after the first present i moved the runner =.=;; then we finished up then i went home.

The next day was christmas eve i went for a nice lunch with my family then went to church in the evening met up with some family friends and went back to there house and i called over to my friend and gave him his present and he delivered the bad news.... while we were wraping one of us cut the runner >.< so yea a good deed gone wrong =.=;;;

So yea that was Christmas Eve, i also messed up before that with my boyfriend i don't know, a series of unfortunate events or what. but yea thats all sorted it out now and i was delighted with his present a lovely necklace ^_^ on christmas day my boyfriend came to my Grandma's house for dinner so that was lovely and yesterday we had a family christmas party yesterday all my relatives were here and my boyfriend came for that aswell and slept over~

Now it is like 2 days until i fly to china can u believe it? time flys by so fast!! my dad still hasn't brought the suitcase down from the attic yet so i am yet to actually pack also tomorrow i have to unlock my fone and develop the photos that i am bringing.... hmmm i wonder what i will be doing this time next year? who knows i am living for now and not making any regrets... but i can't wait to go. i don't know what to expect i have alot of spending money to bring which is good i only have a few ideas of things i definitely want to buy like glitter stuff for my fone nail accessories, the scented gel pens, hello kitty accessories, clothes lol and more.

so thats me ^^ i will be back after my trip!

China!

Hey!
it's been ages as always. well i have now settled into 2nd year of college. I was kind of nervous at the start, I was a bit concerned the subjects were going to be alot harder than first year. specially since i was going to be separated from all my friends it only dawned on me a week before returning that i basically know absolutely know one personally from the HRM stream sure i knew people to see but not close like.....

Anyway all went fine i met a nice new girl Aoife she is nice pleasant we get on ok a good classmate but not best friend i don't know sometimes i find it difficult to connect to people, I lose interest or whatever.... this girl really reminds me of a friend i used to have Bridget =( i miss her to be honest i wish we didn't fall out but i think we just out grew each other... which is really sad what can we do these things happen maybe we will meet again in the future and reunite as friends... hope hope.... but anyway aoife aoife we had one mishap lol one monday maybe a month ago or so anyway she asked me to have lunch together which would of been lovely...... but she doesn't like college canteen food =S WTF??? lol so we went to somewhere more upmarket HELLO ??? i can't afford no job =( we went to dunnes stores it could of been worse i thought i was going to hate the food lol panini n cheese n ham salad lol yum i ate it though not to bad =p but me in arkward situations and i do eat :D which makes me feel confident that i will be ok in china..... =p

which leads me to my next topic =P guess whos going to ChiNa baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASIA HERE I AM COME!!!!

oooh yea excited happy ^^ i can't believe it really before it was always something of a dream always on the long finger... someday someday.... and here it is D day 31st of December i leave dublin airport new years eve we must be mad.. the airport is going to be chaotic =p but i couldn't careless ^^ our first trip togetherrrrrr =D well apart from our mini trip to Belfast to see Zhi Bai's mom ^^ still so cool ^^ were going there for a whole month exactly. we bought our tickets like two weeks ago.. and my visa should be fully organised by wednesday night... then we will start the next step in the plan.... have to figure out what that is lol

i just thought of it Camera shopping tym =D

over rated

After dating my boyfriend for like 4 months i realised that dating an asian boy is over rated lol.. and that basically i have to admit i had no idea what to expect .. but i have to say i did have a delusion that it was going to be easy and a dreamy experience and things would just float along i dunno i was a total fool lol the problems me and him have experienced have been have astronomical.. if thats the right spelling lol.. basically infinate things to think about nothing is easy at all... there is so many compromises to make i don't mean to discourage people about this kind of dating..... but just be prepared for a bumpy ride..... i'm getting ready for the crash lol.......

but i mean all that said it hasn't all been doom and gloom and problem after problem, fight after fight there has been some good times along the way ^^ this is just something people don't warn you about basically because they don't know... anyway i still have some hope that this could work out with a bit of luck ^^

heres some of our happier moments ^^

Theif

I had the most horrible day today, it royally sucked absolutely everything that could go wrong went wrong actually this whole week hasn't exactly been wonderful at all... can a person be algeric to another person?? T.T i know this sounds absolute madness... but unfortunately it did cross my mind.... this week on i think tuesday... i went to starbucks with my boyfriend had a lovely time.... i kissed him goodbye... on the cheek..... nothin strange with that.. he kissed me goodbye on friday when he was going to work..... things have changed so much since then T.T but anyway the next day he had spots on his face... =/ then he went swiming ... his face was like red... then yesterday... it was so much worse.. i have to say i didn't feel confortable... i do have this tendency to laugh at the most inappropriate moments... its just nerves i think my emotions are so wierd i cry when i am angry or frustrated =/ whats wrong with me??? anyway yesterday i got a laughing fit when this happened to him i just couldn't control it =/

Also i made another mistake.... he text me yesterday "oh my fucking face" then i went to the library and he seriously looked terrible =/ he said to me is it worse than yesterday.... ? i said yes... ooops!!!!!! he thought it was better... then i brought him to a chemist got algery pills and worked on trying to convince him it was better =/ ah fuck ! then today i met him and he asked how is it? i said oh it is much better... but to be honest... ummm no improvement.....

That's not even the beginning of the problems and series of unfortunate events.... well first off i didn't sleep a wink last night @.@ i think, no in fact i know i am catching a cold.... i woke up so grumpy and pissed off ... everything bothered me ! one thing was i wanted to wear the jeans i got for my birthday that i had seen in the hot press that was grand i looked in there and i couldn't see... then my mom said oh i put them in your cuboard.... i went to my room to look in the cuboard.... guess what ? my sister the night before had taken everything out of the cuboard so it was like searching for a needle in a haysack Fuck! then i found out it was a different pair of jeans she had put in.... typical.. i eventually found them in the hot press

Then next thing that happened this was almost the icing on the cake! me and my boyfriend went to the bagel factory for lunch we both placed our order... i opened my purse... guess what no money HOLY SHIT!! i was like fuck fuckity fuck ... WTF happened..... i kinda panicked... then my boyfriend noticed he's like what happened to your money...?? i have never been so embarassed in my life *^_^* then eventually i realised that my sister had taken it.... yesterday my sister asked where is my make up n i told her its in my coat pocket .... and my purse was in it....... so no surprise there... i really can't believe that girl i was so furious when i got home i screamed at her! another crappy worrying thing is normally when my boyfriend gets the train with me he always texts me when he gets to work.... and today he didn't =( ..... i am worried he is pissed off with me so i text him when i got home apologised again wished him well at work also yesterday a similar thing happened... only i text him ... be4 he started work n he replyed... hes starting to distance himself thats what it feels like anyway.... =( am i getting paranoid???? it feels like the beginning of the end


We wer even planing to go to the cinema tomorrow and he canceled thaty because he had to study... its not good signs... and to top the whole day off.. i feel sick with pain in my nose and i have a pain in my stomach ! =( if he doesn't text me tonight i am doomed =( he hasn't said i love you lately either
i hope things improve <3